I feel so upset now! I love to watch tv drama serials but I never expected any of the things shown on tv to happen in real life. But the truth is they are true reflections of what really happen in real life. And the worst thing is, they are happening in my life. It's like all of a sudden my life is so surreal, so dramatic!!!
And I HATE IT!!!

I have always believed that I am a pretty calm person. Or at least I always appear calm, so I have been told. But recently, I realised I am losing my cool more easily. Seriously, look at my previous posts or my status on fb. Majority, if not all, of them are negative. I really feel very very VERY UPSET!!!!

Honestly, I really don't know what I am living for. I suppose everyone feels this way every now and then but recently, I really cannot see the purpose in my living. Yes, I think my going to China to study have a very big part in this. I never liked changes in environment etc and now that I am going to China, I feel really worried. The uncertainty of the future distressed me. Plus the MANY other things that are happening...sigh.

I wish I am a stronger Christian. I pray that I could have more faith to believe in God. He had proven Himself to be merciful and faithful time and again. But I just cant help worrying...What should I do?

Lord, help me find the way, bring me back to You...

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